ratnah,birthday girl


HAPPY 14 tH BIRTHDAY RATNAH KU!!!!!!! YEAH

i want to go out.
please,hahah,i want go moviessss,please.I just want to go,but i dunno what to watch.teehee.Anywaykan, to whoever cares, today, from11.30 am- 22.25pm,i onlined,but i wasn't at home,so the reason is that i forgot to offline,so whoever start conversation with me, sorry if you are talking alone.hahahah.and anyway,i have a camp briefing this afternoon,yess,it was fun siol,and this is only the briefing eh.hhaha.i can't wait to go for the camp! its 9-12 june,and it is at pahang,its not organised by school,its a from a blablabla society,i don even know its name.Hhaa,baek, and sl camp is 3-4 june.lagi baek.

After briefing,straight went to zahra's block, skali she at cwp,wow.So walked there,and its so hot siol,i seriously cannot take it ehh.Reached only,then blablababla,need to fine asyura,me and zahra was super panic oi! some more she didn't have hand phone,hais,atlast,naseb baek,we found her like 1hr and how many minutes after the meeting time,sorry tao asyura.then,take train to sembawang and then take bus 882 to sembawang beach.

Ratnah was a pretty birthday girl ehh,its her birthday party,gerek siol! play2 with water,eat2,and then when its already dark,around 7.59pm, we go play the playground,macam budak kecik siak.Then when its getting later and darker,around 8.20pm,Fahmi wanted to bring us across,to a scary place,i think its a old village,we already walk towards it half way there a,skali i just remembered that i am having menses,alar,the girls thing,then,i tell them,zul and fahmi was like"alermak!"*hitting their heads*,zahra was speechless,and all turn back,and headed back to the beach,"kao pandai uh kao"they said i think,atleast i said before entering ehh.luckily i remembered,if not,its dangerous sehh.haiss,i still want to go sey.lol

blablablabla,eat,joke around and then plan to go back since my father msg me ,telling me that over there got fatima rocker,so took882 back to sembawang interchange,then took962 back to woodlands,inside bus,all quiet,penat mahh,than took bus again,912 back home.finally,reached around 10 plus.

:(

yesterday,e-learning,siol uh,bangon siket peh lambat,and i can't get up from the bed,because my body are all cramp,due to training.so i just force myself to get up.man! i don want to log in,cause i still wanna sleep,but if i log in late,mampos,detention.so i log in.ergh a lot of assignment.Leceh uh,need to do eng and hist diary entry and email to teacher.buang mase aje.From morning i was expecting that my dad will shout his face off at me during the ptc.But then,he didn't,and he's the one lecturing my teacher.My teacher dunno what to say, then he bring up about netball,he say spend a lot of time for netball lah that's why i don do well,but i didn't attend netball for god knows how many times.Then my father turn at me,and he then started to questioning me.baek pe,then i am sick of it, i show attitude face and kept quite.And i was expecting my father to scold me like freak because i know i deserve it,but then he didn't,he say kindly inside the car,and talk to me like as if i have done nothing,and i cried because i don expect him to be that deep and i cried because he didn't scold me at all while i did badly.I Kept my tears rolling quietly because my father knows i am not the type that will cry if they talk something deep,although i know i am inside.but now,no more hiding, tears just ran down on its own and its so hard to stop it.

And today,mom knows i'll be dismissed early,and she said "kao balek lambat,siap ehh",then i said,"ouh,*sarcastically,watch me."come on luh,its last day of school,i want to spend my lunch with friends also cannot? what do this got to do with my results.ergh, so unreasonable.scolding is other different thing,i accept if she is angry,but stop being so unreasonable and expect me to come home like 30 mins after dismissal.And i quarrel with her this morning,until i don want dad to drive me to school,i walked on my own.And that will be more peace.So i did,walking deadly and super slowly. it usually took15 mins to walk, but since i am half dead, it too 50 mins.i was surprised by the time too. otw there, kept wiping my tears sia,it irritating!!!!,and when reached school,luckily it dried up and i seated normally.After school,i don care about the time,i just went lunch with others.And i wanted to hang around for long first before going back home,because i hate to be in unrest position at home.But since the rest wanted to go home,it left me no other option.went home,mom don wan to open the door.called everyone of my family for god knows how many times,and they didn't answer.so i seat in front of the lift at my level,luckily got my junior chatted with me,if not i will be dead already.bla bla bla, for like long, then my neighbour saw me, and ask to come inside his house while waiting,but i don wan,its just that i don want.And finally, sister came, and she unlock the door and i FINALLY get to come in, then mom ask, why i come back,and i stared at her and walked to room and slammed the door.

currently doing E-LEARNING and chatting with,khair and zul,raatt,aliza,asyura,zahra. oh my god,today parent teacher conference.seram.results aku!

Hello.
i miss blogging. anyway ehh,hib,kao sue aku? muker kao sue aku? alermak. hahah aku letak gambar kao ajer teros kecoh sak tagboard.

anyway,i am tired of planning for class outing but there's no cooperation,especially teachers.yess,you push it to dec, then you say not confirm yet,never mind,no need outing with teachers. Some of us planned already, will post on blog for the info,and if for those who didn't get the msg or whatever,never mind,its not compulsory,its depend on yourself.Now anymore class thingy,i won't bring up during homeroom,because its so freaking.

stop about that thing,now today, i go home early.yes,supposed to go massage with mom,sister.at last ended up,*******.heheh waste time aku balek cepat.next time,i won't if its not important.hahaha. and now i'm recently eating pizza,yep,dad order because most of us are starving. FYI, i love the book i'm reading now.and to hazirah and aisyah if you are reading this, please return the books that we have borrowed same after reading eh,just a reminder.

ohh,MYE results is bad.ergh.i'll need to buck up for EOY.i really need to. and anyway, i can't wait to go for ratnah's birthday party! hahaha,she invite quite a lot. heheh.and raatt, aku try my best to come at 3.if cnnt then i'll update.hehhe.

to spammers,i thank you a lot for tagging yea,erm please be jelous and i know you have nothing better to do.and i'm tired of handling sick person tagging nonsense,and please note that whoever you are, i don care, you boy, or girl or half2 or animal or whatever thing,you are just fooling yourself.so here's what i have to say to you "DON CRY LIKE THIS BY TAGGING IF YOU ARE JELOUS,BECAUSE I HAVE NO MILK FOR YOU :) "

bbbzzzzzzzaaaaaaaahhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
its the weekend.its gonna get a little boring,maybe stayin,maybe going out.but actually i just want to sleep the whole day because,my dreams are all getting funnier,and more better.hahah.seriously,this few days.heheh. err,anyway, yesterday,at cwp,there's some sort of fire,and bla bla bla,me and mom just wanted to book the tickets for movie,skali all running,and covering their nose,and the security guard ask to go down.alermak spoil lerr.

so the nearest,we go yishun and book the tickets,we booked Night at The Museum2,then went back home to fetch sister and brother and then father drive us back to yishun,eat first,and then go inside the cinema.the movie is fun,and funny.teehee:) but through out the movie, father keep sleeping and snoring.and he only watched some parts of the movie,baek pe, abe at last when movie finished,he keep saying and repeating to me"gerek eh cite dier..." and i was like"gerek ke ape,abah tidor ade uh." and then he laugh the irritating laugh at himself.

hmmm. right now, i seriously craving for a chocolate cake.hehe.i don't know why but i want those right now.hahah.forget it luh kak,go watch hannah montana suah.hahah.talking about hannah montana,i am watching it now, and other then that, i keeep watching NigaHiga's videos too,siol uh, irritating shit.but its hilarious.really.uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. you see,i do nothing but youtube-ing the whole day if the day is boring and theres nothing else to do.but since that makes me laugh,then bagos lah ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.and one more thing,i hate to online,because, later a lot offline, and, sometimes, they online, i online,they offline back,then i online,they online,then they don care i online.ape deh.kalao saper2 tak paham,takperlah, you don need to.lol.

ok dhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeengs,thats all i have to say. teehee:)

ps:getting a little tired of waiting :)

ENRIQUE,ITS IN ONE OF HE'S SONG.
INI LAH " Best Friend Forever" AKU AND ZAHRA,naek MENYAMPAR AKU TENGOK MUKE DEK NI.
TAK ADA KERJA "NO WORK"LOL.

hello.
its boring today,i hate it alright.macam siiiiaaaaalll.Firstly,i want go home and sleep,and i dowan school today, i am a lazy pup.yesterday was mc,but the doctor only give one day,stupid doc.i want 3.so that tmr also no need to go school:) .hahah but no,i have to,kalao tak, Ong kecoh.teehee:).anyway, to amirul and haikal, i have posted hib's photo.Jangan marah ehh hibb.lol.tapi muker kao macam siol je ehh,macam dajal,amek kao balek,panggel aku dajal kan. bluek!heheh.

today's dnt lesson is super fun, laptop for each,and can do whatever i want,including listening to whatever song.and,my mom macam tao2 ajer,that i have a freee period,so she called me,she ask have i ate my medicine lah,did i sleep in class lah, am i getting better and so on,sempat bbl ehh.and so bla bla bla,chatted with raatt that is at home.teehee:)anyway raatt, aku mc,kao gy skolah,aku gy skolah,kao mc,aper dah.tak dapat tengok muker kao,:( hahah.

btw,KRIS ALLEN won the title of the American Idol.BAEK UH,si kedi "ADAM",you have strong voice,but you like to scream and you are gay,so there is no such thing as a gay being an idol.teehee:)

hello.
i am a little happy here, i just love today so much,its because,of netball,:).but raatt,i miss you,haha please come school tomorrow okay.teehee:). okay,firstly this morning i woke up late,naseb haikal call me,if not i won't wake up,and the whole house won't too,so clap hands for him.heheh,so i woke up late,then i quickly do what i need to do,and get ready for school,sialah,i dowan pink form!dah lah my badge kena suspended by Mrs Ong,and if i have pink form,confirm i won't get back my badge,ish tak boleh,i want my badge,terpakse buat baek ehh.

and so me and sister already ready,brother go school alone,and father go car park to take the car,and then sister and i went down and wait for dad to arrive,sialah,then he called me,he said that he forgot the car keys,then i was like "BAGOOOOOOOOOOSSSSSS!PANDAINYE ABAH!!!SAPER AJAR!" i think i shouted quite loud enough for the whole block to hear,but i was so angry! and then i run up using STAIRCASE some more, i grab the keys,and go down, my father and sister was waiting and can still goyang kaki and father shout "come on,come on,you can do it,faster2!" he did that with his pathetic face and stupid moves,then i was like mad already siol,then we went carpak and then dad drive me to school,luckily no pink form.

so school is fine,nothing much,after that,got netball,and it was so fun.we run like bulldog siol,a lot of physical,and lastly,we did 2.4, mkao,i did badly due to the long-term break.and after that played games with the sec ones,siolah,gerek,cute oi they all.hahah,and celebrated Ms wati,hidayah and iznie birthday, baek arh,sumer kener simbah air,yeah! but only ms wati,hahah kalao kiter simbah kat dier confirm marah giler and kecoh ehh.simbah2,atlast aku pon kene,and my whole body was like so wet,and zahra kesian,kene banyak kali,LOL.and yesssah,sumer basah.:) except for some.wet2,then took bus home,and i was like shivering like mad.seriously its cold!!!!!,walked from bus stop,sialah,dh gelap2 and i was so cold ,i feel like hugging something,or blanket myself. till here.

ps: hazirah,thanks,and i want to meet you again ehh,thanks for the concern girl,i love you babe,muah.and to sister,love you.:)

sayaaaaaaaannng pole.
me and hazirah :)
orchard road
Marina to esplanade.
esplanade.
firend's slipper is injured, lol
Restaurant Indonesia :)
ini lah kawan aku yang samer namer ngn aku.
hazirah giler.

hello.
i am ssoooooooooooooooo happy to meet them!its been a while okay.Miss them like so much,espeacially atikah,not me,its just we share the same name :) hehe.Atikah dh berubah,lagi lawar oi,imagine,from a tomboy,and now,she is into summer dress,like me :).heheh actually bleh katerkan,all of them getting prettier,seriously.teehee:). we met each other at 12,and,i am so semangat.For the first time,i came there first,tapi paisey giler ehh,masok bns abe tengok2 abe tak beli,tinggu dorang uh ni.haiyo.

So after waiting,makcik2 itu sumer dh sampai.And follow atikah to body shop to buy her moisturising cream,the smell is so sweet,i want it-next time.and anw,i don want to spend the day at cwp,its so mendak.i'm hating it already.so they agreed to go to town.teehee,baek uh.And we took a train,stopped at orchard,and search for eating place.after walking quite a lot and choosing which place,we finally decided to eat at hazirah's suggestion,the Indonesia's restaurant,you see,i'm running out of bucks and they still can eat there,haiyo,dorang memang kaye betol.each of them brought big bucks,mak kao,tak leh angkat .

the food is worth the money.because its delicious and make me so full already,but its still not enough for aisyah.hahah. we plan to walk to esplanade,but sumpah,i don't know the direction from there,so we just walked straight,and found a bus stop,search for bus to esplanade,and found one,naseb,kalao tak lenguh jugak kaki aku.we took 111 from sommerset to marina,it stops exactly at singapore flyer,fulermak,ader hati uh nak naek.hahah.there's kinda carnival there,its so fun! got a giant table soccer there,i want,macam boleh gitu eh,and there's a lot of tourist,menyampar aku nak cakap sleng.ergh.

walked3 and reached esplanade,teehee:),like finally. and lepak2,camwhore,and explore the place.We run around like crazy,skali atikah's slipper is torn,lol,i was so suprised,then she bare foot,and we all also,because kiter kan sehati,and kesian atikah bare foot sorang. imagine guys, being bare foot at esplanade, i mean near the supreme court?lol,but so what, mat rep nk ketawekan,ketawekan lah,kiter aper kesah.but malu siket uh,lol.first piker siket je uh orang, skali gi supreme court, mak kao,satu group sak.me and aisyah tundok jeee.tengah tahan malu.and after whatever shit we do,we walked to penisula,otw there,turn around,one line of mat reps behind us,siak ah memalukan,and check2,aisyah dh pakai kasot dulu,baek pe.Then i also wear back my shoe,tinggal tu due ekor,abe atlast kesian kan,bukak balek,and walked quickly to watson,beside penisula. we wear back,and atikah bought plaster and fixed her slipper.kesian dier.but is funny too.

so after all that,take train from city hall to woodlands. and go library to borrow books. me ,aisyah and hazirah borrrow same same.and then some mat2,came,i hate them so much,perangai macam ...ergh!!!,so we left the place, hazirah go home,and then aisyah and atikah eat again,lol.tak cukop2 eh dorang.i am so full,so i just watch them eat.Dad called,and then meet them , bought and packed the food.and finally, homed.

ratnah:aku still tak leyh upload uhk.aku try send kat email kao ehh?

Zahra:kalao she tell you the truth,why are asumming that i hate your wallpaper??????? yang ari tu depan kao jgak kan aku cakap just to joke out,and thats a joke.and if you heard with your own ears,that whats the thing that you hear? and kao mati2 nk tao everyhthing kan,kater kao dh tao? and kao masih tak percaye ape yang aku ngn raatt cakap aper.so makne nye,ade lagi banyak yang orang bilang kao pasal aku kat kao tu yang buat kao tak percaye yang aku dh bilang the truth,or maybe, kao dengar sendiri,which i don remember saying that anyway. and yang pasal orang spam blog kao tu,saper uhk? macam maner dier tahu pasal problem ni? memang...what goes around comes around.let me add this" what goes up must come down " aku tau aku sort siket tapi aku just nak add sentence tu for fun.Tapi the point here is that aku ade lagi banyak things to confirm about this problem.pasal kao assume a lot of things kat blog kao,and i have a lot of replies. but you see tak guner kalao aku keluarkan tu sume,pasal nnt lepas tu,kao plak reply,abe aku reply pastu tak abes,so nk cut short, aku don wish to do anything about it now, aku leave it as how it is and up to saper2 yang nk bbl to each other ke tak. and if shafiqah ikot kao tu,aku tak kesah,pasal the problem yang kao nk stress out to pasal raatt ngn aku (pasal yang laen mmg dh kat kao) aper,so kalao aku gi kat kao pon tak gunerkan,macam ari tu,aku dudok kat central square je kao puseng depan,so nampak sah kao tak nk aku gi kat kao.and asyura tak salah paham,dier cakap exactly ape yang keluar dari mulot kao,tapi kao piker lagi skali,kalao kao raser aje yang aku betray kao, but you still assumed to yourself that aper.and i never said that you tell to people about that. so the point is here,you settle your own doubts, and i settle mine.and make it fare,its really up to whoever who still wants to talk to each other.

ps:sorry ratnah,i'll update the photos tomorrow.this damn blogger is crazy.

for whatever reasons it is about just now's incident,to be frank, i will keep in mind and never forget this day.This is the day that i felt the most extreme anger,an anger i could not control.And i don't want to say who,cause i know that person know who I'm referring to,i don want to put your name here.And now,my day is spoiled,from a good beginning, to you know what.

i don wish to fight,but whatever it is,I'm feeling it now,i feel betrayed,but somehow you said you are the one feeling that.okay,since you felt that,then that's your point of view.if you have trusted me enough,this won't happen,and you said you know everything,but you see there's something i wanted to say,but i know if i do the whole thing would be a mess,and you don believe me that i said it all.so first,the trust is gone.I know you have other bunch of problems,that you stress about,but what about me? i didn't show to you that i am stress,because i know you wouldn't want to hear it anyway because you have your own problem to handle.i hold back as much problem to myself and keep it to me only.

you said i didn't appreciate what you've done to me,but let me ask you some,if you are sincere,you wouldn't tell in your blog that you helped me,its whats from the heart,and you make that count on the problem you have.i appreciate very much what you've done or whatever.But i don care if you say i don't,because,what else must i do to make you convinced? must i really show it all off?and yes, i thought you are different,that's why i make you my best friend,i have never treated anyone as close as you,and you said you know me well,but what about this? if you know me inside out,you wouldn't have believed that.

just reflect on one thing girl,if i really hate about your relationship,i would have said to you to break up already on that day went you ask me my opinion when you have almost make up your mind to commit.remember? when you have problem with him and almost committed?well,if you don't remember,than that's your problem.at least i know it happen before.And for some reasons,i can't accept the part when you told me how much you hate that girl,and now,you sight her and said to ratnah"tapi yang selalu kutok is kao aper".you see,i know this would happen because i can feel that you seems to take a step back when it comes to those topic.And you said" kalao kao rapat ngan dier,dier dh berubah",so,willing to say you are already close to her before this.right?

And how much i tried to act normal this morning to you even though i read your blog the day before,you still avoid me,so who's avoiding who.and you said, "kalau nak sound,soundlah ,kalau nak marah,marah lah"but just now seems to be a whole lot of different thing,Zul wanted to talk to you,and then he said no need because you wanted to go home early.And then you ask we to be fast,and you came over.And from then on,i know i could never take you back,because you seems to have it all out.and for info,wrdl is loosing up,and all thanks to whatever problems we have.and raatt's closing down wrdl blog's sooner.since we don see the need of it anyway.

once more i say again, i thought you are different,but you are just the same,like other typical girls.and now its a lesson for me to learn to wisely picked someone and think again of what i've decided to be part of my life.we can be friends, but not as close as last time,what we used to be,once the glass is broke,it'll be broken and never be fixed,meaning, we can get close as much as possible and almost like we used to be,but never like last time,its all about trust.And yes, i've been making myself not to do this,to post this, but somehow you should know what i'm feeling,that's the same thing as what you wanted me to know how you feel.you can treat me whatever you want to treat me as,its your choice,I'm not getting to that.

i hate long post,because readers would be Boring now.AND i bet they are.

with regards,

hello.
this movie is brilliant.its interesting .this movie came about from the 1960s actually,its exactly same,and now,it reappear to be something more entertaining that can make people interested than its original scientific kinda of concept.i watched this yesterday, with family.its about 2hr 15mins or so,i love very much,you see,my first impression on this movie was so bad, i hate the advertisement,espeacially the "rambot mangkok",its so horrible,but after watching it,it turns to be a whole lot of difference.Its not totally scientific,but its full of cool dramatic scences where theres alot of laughter. rate for the movie: 10/10.

okay,post ends with a quiz tagged by ratnah.

13 . What was the last movie you caught?
star trek

14 . What are you proud of?
i'm proud of myself.

15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
erm...i don want to tell

16 . What was the last song you sang out loud?
"whole lotta love" and "diamonds and rusts"

17 . Do you have any nickname(s)?
att/attiqah/atiqkstar/cullen

18 . What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
i dont want to telllllll

19 . What time did you go to sleep last night?
23.46

20 . Are you currently happy?
nope.

21 . Who gives you the best advice?

father.

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
i hate whipped cream

23 . Who did you talked to on phone last night?

my phone is dead, i talked to sister about "skipping lecture tomorrow"

24 . Is something bugging you right now?
yes,i want to watch movie,i want to watch new movie

25 . Who is the last person to make you laugh?
myself

hello.
yes,I'm feeling kind of weird right now,because,i don't know what i am feeling.Hahah.anyway,i have been thinking lately about running away actually,not that,but running away as in to the Fantasy world (the stupid but fun somehow,or rather different ,but it never exist).i know how crazy i could be when i am in one.imagine,living a life in an another world unlike now,where there's only you and you're wish come true.well,that's what I'm thinking cause i know i need day off thinking of "stupid" stuffs rather than stressing uselessly and listening to slow music everyday hoping for peace.But the actual fact how to overcome it is to keep it real and take it easy,and don throw the time just like that,cause when you let the stress control you,you know it'll never ends,and only when you realise this stupid game,you'll see that you are just being a fool and wasting your best years of your life,and this years are the one you should have remembered when you grow up and look back.Nobody wants to look back and see the lifeless time they have.This are the horrible years ever but somehow,its the best years. live it well,and enjoy every moment because you might not enjoy it in the future.I'm not going to be stress again,its just a game that i need to play it off ,although i know its hard. so let's make this day count,no more stress,now I'm straight,now i get it,now i take,time to think before i make mistake.That part of me left yesterday the heart of me is strong today,no regrets I'm blessed to say the old Me's dead and gone away.~aink,macam kenal je last sentence,lagu Ti kan? lol.

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