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yesterday,e-learning,siol uh,bangon siket peh lambat,and i can't get up from the bed,because my body are all cramp,due to training.so i just force myself to get up.man! i don want to log in,cause i still wanna sleep,but if i log in late,mampos,detention.so i log in.ergh a lot of assignment.Leceh uh,need to do eng and hist diary entry and email to teacher.buang mase aje.From morning i was expecting that my dad will shout his face off at me during the ptc.But then,he didn't,and he's the one lecturing my teacher.My teacher dunno what to say, then he bring up about netball,he say spend a lot of time for netball lah that's why i don do well,but i didn't attend netball for god knows how many times.Then my father turn at me,and he then started to questioning me.baek pe,then i am sick of it, i show attitude face and kept quite.And i was expecting my father to scold me like freak because i know i deserve it,but then he didn't,he say kindly inside the car,and talk to me like as if i have done nothing,and i cried because i don expect him to be that deep and i cried because he didn't scold me at all while i did badly.I Kept my tears rolling quietly because my father knows i am not the type that will cry if they talk something deep,although i know i am inside.but now,no more hiding, tears just ran down on its own and its so hard to stop it.
And today,mom knows i'll be dismissed early,and she said "kao balek lambat,siap ehh",then i said,"ouh,*sarcastically,watch me."come on luh,its last day of school,i want to spend my lunch with friends also cannot? what do this got to do with my results.ergh, so unreasonable.scolding is other different thing,i accept if she is angry,but stop being so unreasonable and expect me to come home like 30 mins after dismissal.And i quarrel with her this morning,until i don want dad to drive me to school,i walked on my own.And that will be more peace.So i did,walking deadly and super slowly. it usually took15 mins to walk, but since i am half dead, it too 50 mins.i was surprised by the time too. otw there, kept wiping my tears sia,it irritating!!!!,and when reached school,luckily it dried up and i seated normally.After school,i don care about the time,i just went lunch with others.And i wanted to hang around for long first before going back home,because i hate to be in unrest position at home.But since the rest wanted to go home,it left me no other option.went home,mom don wan to open the door.called everyone of my family for god knows how many times,and they didn't answer.so i seat in front of the lift at my level,luckily got my junior chatted with me,if not i will be dead already.bla bla bla, for like long, then my neighbour saw me, and ask to come inside his house while waiting,but i don wan,its just that i don want.And finally, sister came, and she unlock the door and i FINALLY get to come in, then mom ask, why i come back,and i stared at her and walked to room and slammed the door.
