
please, i'm a not-that-type-of girl

prefered to be just this.all the time.

not-sleeping, just wondering how get you out of my head
MONDAY.
i really thought i could handle this...bt i still keep fighting that in my mind everytime.no one knows it.even you--.,i don't want to see you. i don't want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!you just make my life worst.bt i just could'nt even think now.
TUESDAY.
a big elle oh elle today.espeacially during ms karen ong's lesson, i love it so much.like today she's really in a good mood.she walked pass me, stared almost every part,but she did'nt confisicate it.7 earholes filled with colourfull sticks.but i won't let it became hers of course.
during SE period, everyone need to behave so that we have SE lesson.after we finished the english stuff, then all must behave so we get what we want.so right after she collected the papers, everyone was like stomping" SE! SE! SE! SE! SE! SE!" and ms karen ong was showing her "omg"face.and she grinned.bloody lower sec.lol.
WEDNESDAY.
self-training.we did quite some drills. and i want to try to play shooter!!!!!!!!!!!!.i want i want i want.hahaha.only netball i make me happy, the rest of school hours-not so.and yea!!!! not to forget, about mt lesson.!hehe.i handed cikgu my workbook last week,until now, no return, and then she blammed me for nt bringing, than i fight for my rightsaying to her that's with her-sekali pade aku(mampos).and then so i did nth during the lesson.just keep looking at other place, then, she asked everyone to read books,MALAY books.i don't have any-not interested.so i took eclipse out of my bag and read it.the boys was like,"cikgu, itu buku inggeris cikgu"then i dunno why i was not worried, i spoke calmly "tak lah, dier ader campor english ngan malay lah(cause she don't know what the book is)"then she checked, and i turned to aliza "mampos.."then cikgu just keep my book on her table,zahra came back from toilet, and she laughed when she saw that her twin's favourite book on teacher's table,and i said to cikgu,"cikgu belom pulangkan buku kerja kat saye abeh sekarang cikgu amek buku cerita saye, abeh saye nak buat ape???"then she ignored me TOTALLY.wtf.luckily at the end of the lesson, i got those back, if not......erghhh.
test test test! this week, i am seriously toooooooo busy.test here, test there.and i failed one of them.sialah. i really need to study sial.then homework was like- SO MUCH!!!!!!!!,and i still got malay project to do. and some more other stuffs dued next week.this weekend i am busy too.got lecture to attend, got this, got that.sialah.boleh mampos sial.and i got not enough sleep and that makes my eye lids heavy everylesson, and my hands are like stonning,can't copy notes easily, can't write properly, handwriting getting worst.sialah....stress siol. i don want to drop....................jangan.......-bismillah